because the more you love the more you fear. And i’m really tired of being afraid.
I’m don’t understand how sometimes she’s so responsive and other times she blows me off completely for days on days… Why can’t she just treat me at least decently most of the time? I hate feeling so dismissed and uncared for.
For all the times i’ve been there for her, I think I deserve her to be there for me.But she’s never there. Even when I reach out she doesn’t even care enough to give me the same kind of dedication.
I know she cares, I know deep down she’s a good person and a good friend. i just wish she could learn to value our […]
Everyday I convince myself a little more that my life is significantly less meaningful than I used to believe it was. Everyday I become more convinced that I matter less and that I’m not loved and that life in general is purposeless.
The one and only person I have ever loved does not love me back. Cannot love me back. (My best friend)
And everyday my best friend becomes more distant and dismissive and leaves me grieving for what our friendship used to be. Leaves me grieving for the feeling of her needing me and her being there for me when I needed her. But every […]