Im 27. I have been depressed and have had periods of serious suicidal ideation for as long as I can remember. Ive tried making massive lifestyle changes, I no longer drink or use drugs and I excercise daily. Ive tried changing my thought processes, Ive tried talking to people. Ive decided that I am sick of living the lie. Happiness is not possible for me, and Ive finally began to make my exit plan. I will not survive the winter.