LetItGo

we try to be holy and sweet and glorious at the same time
we kneel behind the bleachers like we do on sundays
we kiss boys with our red stained lips, eyes closed and dreaming of galaxies
we love in secret and confess sins together while grinning
we smile shyly at the boys in front of our parents, but the boys know our dirty secret
they are our dirty secret

we try to be celestial and ethereal, something from above
we hold onto our hearts with all of our life […]

something under my skin is itching and ill scratch myself raw to get rid of the feeling
it is like the pile of trash filling up and making my room smell as rotten as the inside of my heart
yknow ive watched enough criminal shows to know what to do with a rotting body but i dont even know where to begin if that body is mine and im still living in it
im living amongst long showers and piles of clothes littered on my floor
i keep tripping over the same boots, too tired, too pathetic, too saddened to move them
its starting to […]

he told me that i was the galaxy and beyond; i was his love; and instead of honey, he told me this with poison dripping from his lips

she danced in my room in the moonlight; a small shy smile on her face; she hushed the word dear; she was gone before the flowers wilted

they didn’t see the ash on my lips; didn’t sense the smell of burning flesh; they told me i was their future; they couldn’t stand the way i burned myself for others

he whispered to me, from across the room, that i was something to behold and cherish; his voice was […]

we didnt know but i
can say from the end
of the road that we
were destined to fall apart
right from the beginning
from the first breath of
i love you
from the first confession
of forever
from the first look
in our eyes when we
talked about our future

opposites attract they say
they said we were perfect
they said we would live
on holding each others hands
as the earth burned
from the sun
our love was more flammable
than the sun
we ended up burning each
other down to ashes

you tried to put my fire
out with your tears as i […]

honey-
the name is on the tip of my tongue
i want to tell you how merciless he is
how he will destroy you from the inside out
he will burn your heart and break your bones
there is nothing that could stop the way
he gradually steps into your life
and wedges his way into your brain
he will give you things, affection
and records, and clothes and the fake
mirage of love, this is not love

sweetie-
back away from him i want to tell you
i want to beg you to step away from him
put your hands up and protect your […]

you have to understand that im more than an angsty teen in this world you have to know that im more than cliche
someone has to know that honey drips from my mouth because i try my best to be sweet and that
at one point or another its going to drip poison because im so bitter inside and burning myself and
while i am drowning myself trying to put out others’ fires no one is dragging the ocean
to me like i do and i am trying my best to be positive and there but god
it seems like no one truly cares and […]

im so fucking lonely