i dont know what this site is about, but i saw a bunch of suicide related posts and maybe thats its purpose. if not, im sorry. i can delete this.
my family is very poor and my parents yell at eachother a lot. my mom spoke to me secretly about how they might get a divorce after im 16 or 18. im 16 in a couple months.
my dad abuses my dog. he also verbally is rude to me. he is also transphobic, homophobic, and racist. being transphobic doesnt help when i want to be trans. im like a little slave to this house and they make me do their every bidding, calling me 10 times a day to fix a simple drink for them in the middle of me doing work. if i get under 80s they take away all my stuff. im trying to have good grades but they just make it harder for me.
ive been thinking about suicide and even planning to run away, before i realized im too poor and i dont even have the supplies to run away. im also very obedient so thinking about this makes me a little scared but i really want to run away from my shit school and shit dad.
ive been thinking about suicide too. i take 15 vitamin gummies every day now. i dont know if you can overdose on vitamin gummies, but im doing it. ive been thinking about jumping off a cliff but there are none nearby.
i have school now. thanks to anyone for reading this i guess