I’ve asked myself this question too many times…How could god let someone trick me for months into thinking they really loved me. How could god let her lie to me and feel joy from making me suffer? How could god convince me that she was the one person in the world who really understood me?How could god let her lie to me for all this time and convince me that i was right to defend her and lose all of my friends doing it? How could god let her fuck him and cheat and lie to me for all this time and tell me she […]
LosT.in.This.World
fuck….i hate my this life…i am trapped inside of my own mind…tortured by depressing thoughts and memories unable to escape…everytime i talk to someone i feel like im holding my breath…i wish i wasnt the way i am.
Well, I knew it would happen again so here I am writing on this site I guess just doesn’t make me feel so alone about how I’m feeling..anyways why is it that we always want the one thing which we cannot have? I just can’t take the fucking hurt anymore..so here I am laying in my bed with my razor blade, seven fresh cuts on my wrists and my itouch listening to music that reminds me of the times when I was with her..fuck my life…
well lets see… my name is Eric. i’ve never really had good social skills throughout my life i’ve always been the more quiet type who needs a little extra motivation to come out and talk to people. Im 16 years old, im on the high school wrestling team, i have a good amount of friends i could say, im not bad looking but i have always been very self consious about myself with small things such as not being very tall (5’5″) , having bony wrists and being rather slender due to my metabolism, and some minor acne that just wont seem to go away […]