I’ve asked myself this question too many times…How could god let someone trick me for months into thinking they really loved me. How could god let her lie to me and feel joy from making me suffer? How could god convince me that she was the one person in the world who really understood me?How could god let her lie to me for all this time and convince me that i was right to defend her and lose all of my friends doing it? How could god let her fuck him and cheat and lie to me for all this time and tell me she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me? And how could I be so stupid to fall for it all over again and still not blame her for anything. How could god make me feel so helpless and hopeless and lonely that all i can do is lay in bed all day and try to fall asleep because the only time im happy is when im dreaming. but once i wake up i realize that just like her none of it was real. It was all just a dream.
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When bad things happens it’s not always from God it’s from people…. accidents…. circumstances…. disorders in the body, or maybe a hell of a mixture of thoes. We are always looking for someone to blame because our minds can not comprehend the shitness in this world and we forget that sometimes things are really out of our control.
It’s a snowball of bad things decending to our lives and we are sort of caught up in it. and i really hate it.
I think you’ve got it all wrong.
I think it’s the evil in her that made her do what she did.
I think it was your goodness that made you stand up for her.
I think it was your faith that made you believe in her and your relationship.
I think it was your belief that made you forgive her.
I think it was your good nature that gave her another chance.
I think if your friends are true, they will accept that you stood up for her and will accept you back with kind faces, good hearts and wide embraces if you ask them.
I believe that you can learn from this.
I believe you won’t let this girl cost you your faith in human kind.
Perhaps everything happens for a reason. You can learn and gain strength from your experience and when you do find the One, you will “know”. You will hold onto her for all you’re worth and that good karma will come back to you.
She is not worth it. When she realises the error of her ways it will be too late. You will have forgiven her but also have realised you do not need or want someone like her in your life.
Do not despair. God did not forsake you.
i been askin this to god for many yrs…why did this happen to me..why did you do this to me…what did i ever do…why cant you do something…why are you making me feel this way…why does my heart ache…why am i in this situation…why arent you helpin me..
can’t answer any of those…idk why everyone goes thru so much…
so many people turn to god. but god is not an answer. god simply is, or is not. which, we do not know. if a god exists, it would not control you or me, him or her, or love or hate. people will do what they will do to each other with or without a supernatural entity. the human race is what it is. the way we hurt each other will never change.