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Mind & Body Given Up

by lostguy 10/21/2016

written by lostguy

Have you ever reached a point where you’re mind and body are just tired of functioning? You don’t have any desire to do anything, and you’re just tired of existing.

I presume at least a few have felt this way. I suppose I must be in a really dark place which i am. I just don’t care about anything anymore. I’ve tried antidepressants, nutrition and nothing helps really. I just put it down to the way I am wired/made. Its been unbearable and unbeatable. Been like this most of my life. At 31 its just getting deeper and worse.

I’m ready to just lie on a table […]

10/21/2016 2 comments

Lived Longer Than I Should Have

by lostguy 7/13/2016

written by lostguy

Last night I lay awake in my bed thinking about my vacant, failure of a life. I think I have accepted the fact that I have lived longer than I should have. The first time I thought about suicide was when I was 20 years old.I’m 30 now. I think the only things that kept me alive and bothering to go on was that I was able to achieve some success financially in my now dissolved businesses, my family and the very smallest of things in life. But now things are becoming very dark. I think to myself that I really should have pulled the […]

7/13/2016 2 comments

Not Really Sure What To Do…

by lostguy 5/3/2016

written by lostguy

Not really sure what to do anymore. Just let go of my antidepressants about 3 weeks ago after a 13 month period. Didn’t make me feel much better and the side effects were bad so I quit. Suffering now from discontinuation syndrome which is terrible. Brain zaps, sweats, aches you name it. I can feel myself slipping back into the same dark pit I was in before I started taking them. Feeling hollow/empty inside again, pretty much feeling like a waste of space and unmotivated to do much. Got that view of life again. The one where everyone seems to have succeeded and I failed. […]

5/3/2016 1 comment

Demons Are Getting To Me

by lostguy 1/30/2016

written by lostguy

The demons are getting to me. They are all inside my head now and my body is getting drained more and more each day. The suicide fantasies and the warm feelings of ending my life are starting to flare up again. Medication is not working anymore either. I think I’m gonna have to go sometime soon. I have fought for long, but they are winning.

1/30/2016 3 comments

Tired Of Life…..

by lostguy 11/7/2015

written by lostguy

I don’t usually take the time to write things like this on the web, but for some reason I just feel like doing it now. I’m a 30 year old – male, unfortunately have always been shy, reclusive and to myself so I’ve always struggled socially & never really fitted in anywhere. Also been the victim of verbal and physical abuse at school because of this.Never had a job because of this, have been self employed on and off since high school with internet businesses and have lived a pretty mundane life. Now at the age of 30 I just feel exhausted, like there is […]

11/7/2015 4 comments