It’s my birthday… I’m turning 15. I didn’t think my Birthday could get much worse from last year, but I guess I was wrong. I got into a screaming match with my Mom… I stayed at home all day, sleeping and crying. I cut again. I haven’t cut in months… I feel so alone. I need someone and I don’t have anyone. I seriously thought about taking my life again today. What is wrong with me? I’m just a worthless piece of trash… 🙁 I logged on to Facebook today and people I barely knew were wishing me happy birthday. I broke down crying because […]
This is my fucking body. I can do whatever I want with it, its none of yours business. You don’t get the right to tell me the cutting is harmful, or drugs are bad. Odds are, I know a hell of a lot more about self harm then you do, because I experience the effects of it everyday. I do it because it makes me feel good. Who are you to take that away from me? Tell me, do you know what its like to live through depression? I’m SO TIRED of people telling me how to govern my own life. So next time you […]
You envelope me.
Sharlply slicing through the walls I worked so hard to build up.
You mock me, taunting me with thoughts of hope and sercurity.
Smack!
Down I fall.
Hard.
Blood flows from my chest.
Poison, from my lips.
My hands betray me.
My words betray me.
I am alone, broken.
Why?
Why do I continue this journey through sorrow?
Why don’t my gaurdian angels rescue me!?!
I lay, still.
I’m dead.
No!
I’m alive!
So I punch
And I cut
And I scream
Trying, failing to release the fire inside my soul.
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My first attempt at poertry. Consructive criticism?
It makes me angry when I hear people make preconcieved notions about things they don’t understand. I think there are a lot of negative stereotypes that come along with depression, and people that have it. You never know what a person is going through inside. Thats why I think its important not to judge other people, ecspecially if you don’t know them, or understand what they are going through. Saying something mean about someone who is suffering from depression can make them even more unhappy. For some of us everyday is already a battle. It just pisses me off hearing people make uneducated accusations about […]
All my “friends” ditched me this halloween. So I thought I would tag along with my mom and siblings when they went. Turns out my mom picked today of all days to be a total ***** and left me crying in the car while they went trick or treating. I feel so alone! My highschool shut down point blank in the middle of the school year, so now I’m getting homeschooled be my mom. I hardly ever see anyone and its depressing. Normally its ok, but its times like this when I really upset and angry that I feel like cutting, or perhaps suicide. Its the […]
I have been struggling with cutting, anxiety, panic attacks and suicidal tendencies for a while, but today was the worst it has ever been. I’m actually afraid of myself. Afraid that I won’t be strong enough to hold on anymore. A few days ago my farther actually told me to either go kill myself or move out of his house. He later apoligized but the words still sting. I feel like I don’t have anyone left. My best friend ditched me, my farther doesn’t love me anymore, and my mother picked my older brother over me. I took a knife out of our silverware drawer today […]