Malfeitor

Been almost a year since I last posted on here.

The morbid thoughts and fascinations still linger through my mind as the catalyst as a result of life long suffering.

My dreams are what reality is to me, everything else to me is an illusion; a waste of time, space.

Or am I the waste of time, space? I concur.

My faults, leave only a trail of disaster & ruins behind…

Now that I have lost all that was left of value to me, I stand before the gates of death, and stare into its gaze.

To merge with the shadows, complete & utter Darkness, forever, in life & beyond Death.

They […]

I wish i could vomit blood on every despicable disgusting worthless repugnant existent life on earth. Then I’ll dig a fucking ditch and die in it. Mmmmm yeah sounds great isn’t that right malfeitor? Sure is!

Why couldn’t they put cyanide in my I.V when i asked them to when I was laying there with a shirt over my face, and an abundance of tubes hooked up to me, I wanted them off I was screaming, my heart was racing a million miles an hour, like it was gonna rip through my ribcage and chest cavity, I was screaming in pain, I was pissed, Pissed that I was alive…Pissed that, that SHOULD OF BEEN the heart attack that killed me, pissed that they never put cyanide in my I.V, why? why am I still here…because it’s not my time? then fuck […]

I want…
I want my skin shaved off to the muscular tissue
I want lacerations to the bone
I want to be eviscerated by vultures, picking my flesh bone dry
I want to sever my feet
I want to sever hand
I want with the remaining hand to dismember my legs
I want to dismember my arm
I want to slash my throat
I want to decapitate thyself
I want my head blown to chunks from a .50 Caliber
I want to lay in my own pool of blood
I want to echo my blood curdling screams
I want a chainsaw ripping my chest and […]

something I wrote recently to reflect upon myself, this will most likely have little or no meaning to you.
Also, pay attention to the start of each line (lines start after periods).

Luminescence ov the Universe, swallowed whole by gaping jaws ov the Abyss.
Into the void I walk through it’s perpetual seamless gazing eyes ov torture.
Flames ov black fire, enraged with berserked fury.
Engulfs all life into smoldering cinder.

I inhale the ash of 6.6 Billion, earth choked out by its charred remnants.
Sulfur is the potent poison in my veins, corroding like acidic pools ov Tartarus, consuming me.

Visages of mortals projected in Astral Chaos.

ONLY READ THE FOLLOWING IF YOU ARE OPEN MINDED, FUCK OFF RELIGIOUS SCUM.

It doesn’t matter anymore, nothing in this world matters, I see what this world for what it really is, in which it utterly disgusts me to the highest degree, everyone in this planet are sheep, they follow the norm and do what they are told, and none of you will realize it, and the majority of you will oppose what I say because it doesn’t suit your pathetic lives, believe me when I say this. This World is shit, this Universe is shit, I’m fucking tired of how everything is controlled, how everything […]