So far this night I’ve had Pretty Girl on repeat…To me it makes me stronger than I think I am. <3
Mehikka
I think my little sister can tell when I’m depressed. She just spent over an hour or two with me…before she fell asleep….Honestly I don’t know if I can bring myself to do it…not right now anyways…To be honest I am only 15…I have a full life in front of me. I want to own my own Photography business. I….I really like this one guy….I think…I think I’ll save the suicide mission for a different day…I just think my little sister is able to tell when I’m down and tries to save me…I’m literally crying while I’m typing this…My sister is only 4 but then […]
I’m going to do it. I’m going to kill myself tonight. Sorry…and Goodbye
You know what. I think I might kill myself to night
Honestly I want to know how people can say everything is going to be alright or Okay. I can’t just say what or how I feel…To tell the truth, I always (now) look for the depressing side of people. I don’t know why. It’s just that it gets to me clings.
My anxiety rushes started to kick in even more recently. Right now, while I’m trying to write this I’m having an anxiety attack….I just wonder if anyone actually cares about. I wonder what would happen if I run away. Who would come and try to find me…and not just my parents and the police…Like Anybody else…
There are way too many words to express what I feel right now. It’s so hard to even come up with an easy way to say it…Let’s just say it’s someone stabbing me in the back multiple times just to make sure that the body is dead.
I wish the rain would wash me away and evaporated me to nothingness….
So far, it’s only 10:03 in the morning…And so far all I’m doing is looking at quotes that I normally look at.
Just for once, I want to be somebody’s first choice…
Depression stole my Education
It stole all of my Friends
My Motivation
My Dreams
My Future
My Life
Me….
I used to listen to music to get rid of my depression or subside it. Until now I can really relate to Her Last Words By Courtney Parker.
Last night I couldn’t fall asleep. So I opened my window screen and got on top of the roof. I sat outside looking at the stars…that’s when I had the thought to jump off of the roof and onto the driveway. Honestly I don’t know who I am anymore.
I’m so damn tired of everyone and what they tell me to do
People just don’t understand what goes on in my life. They just don’t understand how hard it is for me to accomplish simple tasks only because of my depression. My parents don’t know where I keep my blade clearly….Every time I go to get into the shower I break down. The people that go where I go, they don’t understand that I hide every little bit of my pain behind a fake smile. They don’t know when I say I’m great I’m really not. They don’t understand that I feel like shit everyday only because of my suicidal thoughts and depression anger that runs through […]