there’s too sides to me; i love nature, long walks, sitting next to a creek, i like hiking & going to the snow, i love laughing and feeling completely alive, i like to feel the rush of things like bungee jumping and jumping out of an airplane, i absolutely love art, traveling is one of the main things i like to do, i like being places where nobody knows me, & i believe life is very beautiful,… but this darkness has taken over me and made me into a bitter, lonely person.
i feel like i’m standing in the middle of people while their running past me, everything is happening so fast, lately the suicidal thoughts have been coming more powerful now i’m scared of what i might do to myself.
have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and bawl out crying? well this was me everyday for almost a year , now i look at my self for hours not shedding one tear, i though i could finally bare to look at myself but in reality i just became completely numb, over time i started losing my emotions i could no longer feel, i became so cold that i never let anyone love me because just the thought of someone actually liking me is imaginary, i push to many people away and never regret it. my pride is to high to tell someone […]
I Feel Lost, Confussed, BreathLess, & Its It’s Getting Harder To Right Down How I Feel Because I Can Never Find The Exact Words To Explain Any Of My Feelings, I Have Such A Great Life And A Loving Family But Yet This Feeling Always Seems To Creep Up On Me,..Honesly I Dont Know Where Or How Ima Go On With This…..
I Pray That One Day God Can Forgive Me For All These Suicidle Thought’s In My Mind,
I Hate Being Around People. All I Ever Whant To Do Is Be By Myself Because It Seems Easyer That Wayy,I Have THE BIGGEST Insecurity Issue. I Cant Sleep At Night And when I Do I Feel Like I Didnt Even Sleep,I Am So Confused. I Always Feel Sad, I Get Irritated Really Really Quick Sometimes With Out Reason,I Feel Extremly Fat, I Dont Understand Myself,I Get No Point To Anything, And I Dont Know How To Find Myself Because I Dont Even Kno Who I am..
I Cut For The First Time, All My Life I Had Promissed My Self I Wasnt Going To Go Down That Path But Unfortunately I Failed MySelf, It Felt Like An Escape, Like Something I Can Run To When i Cant Take Things Anymore,To Me Thats The Only Thing That Listen To Me When I Need SomeOne.15 Years Ive Been Fighting My “Depression” And Tonight It WON
Many People See ThemSelves In The future, But I Dont, Honestly I have No Idea What im Doing Here In The first Place I Feel Like I’m An Outcast, I Look Around Me And EveryBodys Happy,Everybody Feels Like They Wake Up Each Morning For A Reason,Not Me Of Course. I Dont get Why I Am Here, And Each & Every Day That Goes By I Wonder Who I Am? And It Seems Like Every Second That Passes By I Lose Myself A Little More. I Feel Like Shitt All The Time And All I Can Do Is Feel It….