have you ever?

have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and bawl out crying? well this was me everyday for almost a year , now i look at my self for hours not shedding one tear, i though i could finally bare to look at myself but in reality i just became completely numb, over time i started losing my emotions i could no longer feel, i became so cold that i never let anyone love me because just the thought of someone actually liking me is imaginary, i push to many people away and never regret it. my pride is to high to tell someone i miss them, i don’t like who I’ve became.