I’m so sick of being away from home for college. I used to hate being home but now I miss it more than anything. I’m sitting at my bedroom door listening to my roommates openly talk shit about me. This is why I have insecurity issues and think people are talking about me whenever I leave the room, because they are.
so last night I posted that nights have been hard and days were fine with me. This morning I woke up feeling just as bad as I did last night and I’m upset that a good sleep didn’t help 🙁 also wondering how someone can cry for nearly 2 hours straight without running out of tears. Couldn’t manage to get myself out of bed for class so this sucks.
Is there a reason why nights are so much harder? I was fine all day, but now I’m having back to back anxiety attacks. My chest is aching and I can’t stop sobbing. My thoughts are eating me alive.
I’ve struggled with depression, insecurity, and severe anxiety disorder for as long as I can remember. My first appointment with a therapist occurred when I was 10 years old, I’m currently a sophomore in college. My depression comes and goes but I feel like it’s just been around for a while this time and it’s worse than ever before. I’ve never really struggled with suicidal thoughts, until just recently. The thing about it is: I do not want to die, I just have no desire to live. I don’t truly believe I could go through with killing myself, but I can’t stop thinking about it. […]