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I feel trapped.

by MoreyPiya 2/26/2020

written by MoreyPiya

I feel trapped.

I am a doctor working in the NHS.

I have been in and out of mental health services as a patient.

My mental health is starting to deteriorate once again.

I want help but I don’t know where to get it.

I am terrified of being found out. I am terrified of my work colleagues finding out about my mental health issues. I am terrified of being seen as weak, as manipulative, as not up to the job, as second-class, as inferior.

When I was in medical school I was briefly admitted to hospital and told to stop attention seeking and manipulating staff for attention.

When I was in […]

2/26/2020 6 comments

Narcissistic Personality Disorder

by MoreyPiya 5/7/2015

written by MoreyPiya

What do you do when you’ve been diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder? How would you feel when a group of professionals call your behaviour attention-seeking?

Well let me tell you. First of all you begin to dissect every single aspect of your life. That comment you just made to your friend – was that just an attempt to steer the conversation towards you? The anger you felt when your friend turned up fifteen minutes late. Was that because of a deep insecurity about your own importance in the world? Do you believe that time itself should stop for you? Those conversations you have had with mental […]

5/7/2015 11 comments

Medic: The end of my career

by MoreyPiya 12/19/2014

written by MoreyPiya

I am a medical student with a history of mental health issues which began when I was a child. I have always been truthful with my mental health problems with my medical school, believing that through being transparent, they would be able to support me fully. Last year I was sectioned under the Mental Health Act (I was forced to go into a psychiatric hospital against my will), and once I was discharged, I stupidly informed my medical school.

Since I informed them, I feel like I am being punished. Everything was automatically shut down; I was told that I was not allowed to return to […]

12/19/2014 7 comments