I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE EVERYTHING I HATE EVERYTHING I HATE EVERYTHING I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO FUCKING DIEEE
mynameissarah
mynameissarah
Well, I'm 16 years old. I've been suicidal for 4 years, or maybe 5 now. I'm ready to expose all my secrets here, keeping my real name untold. It feels good to find some place I can be myself and share my stories, with no fear of being judged.
Overwhelmed with guilt,
Because every bite you take is a compromise.
Terrified of the things I need,
Because they lead me into a dark place.
I am a perfectionist,
Or maybe I just have a death wish.
In this game it’s all about loss, and gain,
But to me it has always been about the loss.
And I’m starving, but it’s okay;
It’ll be worth it in the end.
I’m far from what I want,
But it’ll be worth it in the end.
Beauty is pain as they might say,
And I’m in agony.
I’m screaming for forgiveness,
Because I know I am wrong, but I do not want to be right.
And with all the hurt inside,
I keep my secrets […]