Anorexia Nervosa.

Overwhelmed with guilt,

Because every bite you take is a compromise.

Terrified of the things I need,

Because they lead me into a dark place.

I am a perfectionist,

Or maybe I just have a death wish.

In this game it’s all about loss, and gain,

But to me it has always been about the loss.

And I’m starving, but it’s okay;

It’ll be worth it in the end.

I’m far from what I want,

But it’ll be worth it in the end.

Beauty is pain as they might say,

And I’m in agony.

I’m screaming for forgiveness,

Because I know I am wrong, but I do not want to be right.

And with all the hurt inside,

I keep my secrets untold.

And I am falling in my imagination,

Dreaming of a better day.

Eternal sleep is what I wish for,

Because I don’t want to awake into reality.

So I keep fighting for what I want,

Even if it meant taking my own life away.