this is my first post. I actually found this site while googling ways to kill myself. might not be the most unique way of doing so but why have class with it if my life is such a mess. seems hypocritical of me. I really do hate myself. I have alreadychanged my mind about suicide obviously if I am posting this. I just feel so alone. I’ve been in bed all day, crying. I’m tired of hearing the women on the answering machine on my boyfriend’s phone. he says he’s “busy”….I’m starting to think soon he’ll be “busy” at my funeral.