I’m done trying. I tried to make things better for so long and it never works for me because good things never happen to me. So soon I will make my first attempt with a shit ton of pills and if that does not work I will go sit on the train tracks.
I have been trying to get better and good stuff has even been happening to me but I just can’t help it. I think about my suicide constantly. How and when it will happen, the after effects, who will notice. I just think I was meant to commit suicide.