i am really shaking and breathing heavily…….my whole body is moving back and forth for no reason…..i feel tired…..i think its time to go to the other side…..
i have been feeling very tierd for the past few days…..memories are haunting me…..they are killing me slowly….and making me feel like i am an ignored piece of dried shit sitting at the side of the street……..i feel so tired to even cry…..im remembering everyone who let me down  and gave up on me……i dont know what i have done to deserve this….i am 19 my birthday is next month and ill be 20….im not yet in college i feel like a failure….no body listens…..nobody cares and no body asks…..dad said im cheap….and he also said he doesnt have money for me…..but he does for […]
Today i spent the day sleeping…..i woke up at 10pm……..and nobody noticed….nobody noticed i was missing……i guess thats how its gna be when i end my life…..no one will notice…..i feel like a failure
i want to do it,,,,,,,,i just dont want my siblings to see something horrifying…..i dont want my mom to cry anymore, i dont want her crying over me………the rest of the world wont notice when im gone….
ive been through alot since childhood, ive seen my mom being hit and bleed, ive gone to school scared of coming back home and not finding her alive because dad killed her, ive seen my baby sister die infront of my eyes and i dont remember telling her i loved her, i remember the days dad dint come home cuz he was SOME WHERE ELSE , i remember when he went to sleep like he dint give a shit while my mom had a miscarriage, i remember every word he said to her that made her cry ….i remember dad repenting after my baby sister died […]