I’ve been fine for a while now, I won a couple art contests even, and I’m allowed to go to the next anime convention, but recently the thoughts and nightmares are coming back. I know exactly what is causing it but I don’t know how to respond. My mom saw a suicide note I wrote back then and she had a talk with me. (before i tell you guys anything else, i go to an SAT prep school on Saturdays and they give out a bunch of homework that is due the next Saturday) Usually my mom tells me to finish all of my SAT […]
ohmaigawd…….. my mom and i just had this whole frigging talk about how stupid i am and how i should just die. holy shit, i swear i could just die right now but im not going to because i have to finish typing this. my mom is sending me to china next year because she is “ashamed” of having me as a child. if you went through my thoughts this is how i see it: if i die before next year then i dont have to go to china, i wont have to live this bullshit life anymore, and my mom will be happy too […]
i am 12 years old. its young to be thinking of this but i cant take it anymore. a month ago, i hadn’t turned in my homework 7 times for summer school and when my mom talked to my teacher about it, my teacher said. “when you go back home, dont yell at her.” she said. “okay” to me it was an obvious lie filled with hate. right when i got into the car she ripped off my favorite necklace (my mistake to wear it that day) and she ripped out my hair tie, pulling bundles of hair with it. then she slapped me 12 […]