I am 36, soon to be 37. I am lonely, and there is nobody on this planet that I am compatible with. I meet all sorts of people, and while I am attracted to many, I realize that they are not attracted to me. The only thing that runs through my head is how I stack up with their past lovers, and I don’t stack up well. I literally have nothing to offer. It is time that evolution follow its natural course and kill off the weaker genes, mainly mine. The most value I can provide this world is to donate my organs. I am […]
(I wrote this a few days ago, so now I’m down to 25 days)
“I have always heard that you should never make a decision based on a whim, and that if you are in doubt, sleep on it, before deciding. Considering the magnitude of terminating my own life, I decided to sleep on it quite a bit- I’ll give it a whole month.
My reasoning for this decision is not actually all that important. There has been a building pattern of unhappiness in my life, and one event was finally the proverbial straw that broke the camel’s back. It was not the “reason” but merely the […]
I know that I can create a new future for myself at any moment. But I cannot escape the past I have created. I’m 33, and have a master’s degree in engineering. I struggled my way through school, working full time at night some years to get through. I had mediocre grades, and now I teach college for $35,000 a year. It doesn’t cover my bills, and nobody else will hire me because my grades are too low.
I should have never been an engineer though. I have always been interested in meteorology. I am most of the way through a degree in it as well. […]