http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IfRY3SsozuM
just something I think most of us can relate to
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eMRfDv8v-UM
“after the bombings people had one of two types of courage…either the courage to live….or the courage to die”
This just really resonated with me for some reason
Its odd knowing you only have 840 hours left till you die….seems like a long time but not really……. the last September and October I’ll ever experience….. its not really a bad feeling….it leans more toward anxious…only regret that I have is that a Time Machine wasn’t invented during my lifetime…. or at least a machine that let you watch your memories as movies….. although there are a few things I’ll miss about life…..
NCIS
Cookies and cream Ice cream
My dog lexi
Halloween during childhood
The years 1998-2004
Ms.Lagrange
and Childhood…..
Autumn is here….the season where everything dies…. I love this time of year and I’m glad that this will be the last season I ever experience…its something soothing about watching nature die….the leaves fall…the grass turns tan…..the bugs die…..flowers wilt away…. seems like the perfect time to die….
I don’t want to jump to any conclusions but I think she is gone.
We were emailing back and forth and she said she was going to die that day and I haven’t received an email from her since. I also haven’t seen her on the site since that day….. I don’t know if she has passed but from what she said in her emails to me she was pretty adamant about wanting to die…. so I’m inclined to believe she has….If she has indeed passed on I just want to say R.I.P and I hope that she has truly found the peace and comfort […]
It’s about that time where all the bullshit about 9/11 starts coming on t.v on CNN ,Fox news and National geographic and probably a few other channels. I’m just curious…..Does anybody really buy the official story?
It’s sad I never heard of this man up until recently while on a random YouTube video spree. He is a great philosopher and comedy just happens to be the way he conveys his message. If you’ve never heard of him you should watch a few YT videos of him……The man is absolutely brilliant.
Another year has passed…..another miserable 365 days….so what that makes me…..8035 fucking days old…. I’ve been absolutely wretched for almost a third of that time…….just pathetic……..Today is my birthday and I feel fucking horrible…..I’m 22…..and I fucking hate it…..Another fucking year further from my treasured memories…..I don’t want to celebrate…..I don’t want any gifts…..I don’t want to be sung happy birthday to unless you replace “happy” with “crappy” then I guess its acceptable….I don’t want anything except to lay in my bed and dream I’m back in 2002 in Ms.Lagranges class. I couldn’t even cry….As much as I want to I feel more shame than […]
When SP is dead I find myself reading the post from years and years ago. It makes me wonder how many people have gone on to leave this earth and how many are still here….I’m inclined to believe more people left than stayed by reading some of the stories. Does anybody know of actual members that have really passed? I know its unlikely that you would know but I’m just curious
I was watching T.V and a commercial for anti-depressants came on…..It said how it could help you…blah, blah, blah but then something made me think; the blatant irony ….” side affects may include nausea, vomiting or the increase of suicidal thoughts in children, young adults and adults”….Sooo this medicine has a risk to make people more suicidal than they are now….. but its supposed to work against depression? Its not guaranteed to work but it has a risk to fuck you up in the head even more? On what planet does this make sense? Hell, they might as well give you a gun with a […]
*These are not my words they are from a blog I read online. They provide an interesting point of view and should be read and thought about.
Citizens considering the issue of suicide generally fall into one of two camps: those who condemn suicide (and people who commit it) on moral grounds, and those who, while acknowledging suicide’s awfulness, excuse those who commit suicide on grounds of mental illness. Along with Thomas Szasz, I fall outside either camp: suicide is a choice for which the actor is responsible – he is not automatically mentally ill for having chosen suicide – but I doubt whether […]
I hurt myself today,
To see if I still feel,
I focus on the pain,
The only thing that’s real,
The needle tears a hole,
The old familiar sting,
Try to kill it all away,
But I remember everything,
What have I become,
My sweetest friend,
Everyone I know,
Goes away in the end,
And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,
I wear this crown of thorns,
Upon my liars chair,
Full of broken thoughts,
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time,
The feelings disappear,
You are someone else,
I am still right here
And you could […]
I’ve been up all night thinking….is today the day? Tomorrow? Tuesday? …seconds keep turning into minutes that keep turning into hours that keep turning into days that keep turning into weeks that keep turning into months that keep turning into years….Life keeps going….Its unforgiving…you miss the bus you miss the bus there is no catching it….I keep lingering and festering like an open wound exposed to germs … I hate that the sun rises signaling the end of yesterday and the beginning of today….I fucking hate that today is the future that seemed so promising 5 years ago…I turn 22 next month on the 5th […]
I would want to live in north america long before the days when the explorers came over here. Long before tall skyscrapers and automobiles…. When life was simple but challenging and not painful and harsh. Back then the only challenges they faced were shelter and food….they were truly FREE….not “matrix free” but actually free to do whatever, whenever, and however they wanted…No ridiculous and incompetent Gov’t no  “Marriage license” or “fishermans license” didn’t need a “drivers license” to ride a horse… just the absence of modern bullshit….I just hate the way life is constructed nowadays… It’s a contributing fact to why I will end my […]
We are not free. We are cattle. We are managed and oppressed debt slaves…The world is one big farm. I don’t know if other people realize things like I have. They say “slavery” has been abolished but it hasn’t. Its been redefined and covered up so that you do not know you are a slave. How? you ask… Well because of how slavery works. If you keep a cow confined in a tight box it will bash its head against the cage and kill or injure itself…but If you allow it more room to operate it becomes more productive and gets more money for the […]
Whats the difference? I don’t understand how one is accepted by society while the other is condemned by society….shouldn’t they both be accepted?
Last night, I had a bittersweet dream…….. I wasn’t depressed and I was with my friends and family and we were having a good time. I cant remember all the details just little bits and pieces. I remember me and my old best friend were  at the beach with two girls laughing, having fun, happy, smiling, and enjoying the time. when I awoke this morning and realized I was still here and that I had been dreaming it felt like I had been punched in the heart. To come back to reality and realize none of those things happened is devastating. I wish I could […]