I broke my morals. they were the last thing keeping me together. now I feel like a broken record. I cant even process what just happened and I am so beyond over. I already can know that I am going to hell and theres no point. I am so high right now just to numb the pain. I dont know what to do anymore. life before this was worse and now I can barely breathe if I cry. what happened. like I just do crazy things, come home, regret everything, hurt myself and go out and repeat it everyday. but according to my psychiatrist I […]
This empty feeling fills my stomach. The girl who tried to get with my boyfriend so that “id kill myself” acting like I completely made up everything I told my man and acted like I was a crazy liar. now I sit in my room, filled with emptiness. I know the truth but in the back of my mind it feels like no one will believe me when she full heartedly denies it and acts like a fake *****. sorry for the complaining. just another day to conquer I guess. something just doesn’t feel right. manipulation and deceit have fucked up my mind. I see […]
I hate this world so much, there is no point of being alive on a planet that makes you miserable. I don’t understand why I can’t just be happy, but I don’t want to feel like this all the time. suicide just seems like the best answer.
Every day its the same thing, a deep pain inside of me that pushes me to have no motivation or will to live. It just keeps getting harder. All the people in my town are stuck up and have huge egos. No one ever cares. It is so hard to live in a world where everyone can just betray and ridicule me. I don’t want to be on this planet but I don’t want to be selfish either. No one understands how much they hurt me and they continue to step all over me. One day I will believe things are getting better and be […]