everything will soon be over

You say you hate yourself in this post but how could you? You really shouldn’t. I read your other post about the chick who said some really messed up things. The things she said would make any sane person upset. You have every right to feel angry but NOT at yourself. And you’re definitely right! There are a lot of crazy bastards out there with no moral compass whatsoever. You’re not crazy for understanding that and expressing that thought. I bet many others see that craziness too. I know I definitely do. It’s on the road, at work, at school, online, at home, etc it can be anywhere. People like that are selfish. They let their emotions run rampant but it’s not only that. They also let those emotions dictate how they behave with others and that’s what I mean by selfish. You have every right to feel those intense emotions you just described but don’t let them control you. From what I’ve read (and you can correct me here) but it looks like you’ve already acted on your negative emotions. Hey we’ve all been there before, I know I have ?? and I’m not proud of it. All that means is that you’re not invincible. You’re human and you break too. Ain’t nothing wrong with that. But at least you seem to feel sorry about it.

Personally if I were you I’d ignore this chick. She’s clearly got an agenda but you don’t have to play into it. You let her know that you don’t put up with her crap by ignoring her. If it’s just online smack talk then don’t let it evolve beyond that. That’s called enforcing your boundaries and if you don’t have some you really should get some. She wants you to play into this and get angry at her. Don’t give her what she wants. She’s clearly insecure about herself and the only way she can feel good about herself is by putting others beneath her. Definitely not an attractive quality to have. If your ex is attracted to that then it’s his loss and it’ll mean he has terrible taste in women.