I haven’t gone to school for two weeks. Dad dropped me off by the university the monday before last, and i… walked the one hour walk to my apartment. My parents don’t live in town, i was just at their place over the weekend. I don’t know what to say. Hopefully my parents haven’t noticed yet. They do know i’m doing poorly, though… Dad gave me the “we can’t support you forever, so work hard and get a grip” speech again today. But really, i’m just waiting to die. I took a couple of paracetamol based pills yesterday. Overdosed by 3. Not much, i know. Maybe something […]
… Planned to kill myself with a knife in my bathtub. Should have known it wasn’t going to work. But i suppose it was more of a wild hope to start with.
*warning. boring rant. proceed at your own risk*
It’s ironic. I’m failing school, and i should be heads deep with school work, but i just can’t make myself care. I can’t even keep track of what i’m supposed to be doing. It’s all blank to me. Instead i find myself dreaming of doing something productive i can be happy with. If only that was school related *sigh* *I spend my days doing nothing. I attend […]
I intend to kill myself sometime next week. It’s going to hurt, and i’m probably going to chicken out. Again. But the thing is, i don’t really have a choice anymore. I’m rubbish at school, utterly incapable of studying and my study funds will most probably be cut. I haven’t bothered re-applying yet.
I can’t pay for my apartment, which really isn’t my apartment, since it’s i my sisters name…. If i fail to do so, it’s not my financial record it’s going to tarnish, it’s hers.
I know i’m taking the “so called” easy way out, but i just don’t care anymore. All i can do […]
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