There’s a voice in my head i never can ignore.
I hear it every single day, and right now it seems like i want to hear it more.
It sounds appealing to my ears because my soul is gone.
I wish that i could draw closer cause it’s a sweet song.
It calls my name day and night like it is next to me.
And i can almost feel it cause this pain is stuck inside of me.
I swear that one day I’ll pull the trigger to escape this trap.
So i can stop breathing while i take a never ending nap.
Nightmares stay […]
Man i hate life, but if the shoe fits, wear it.
i hate myself for being born on this evil planet.
if i could kill and get away with it ill make these fuckin Christians pay in blood because they know inside they fuckin did it.
I bathe in pain because my life is in a fucking mess.
Don’t say you understand because you dont know how i stress.
i think about suicide all the time because i wanna die so bad and it dont matter that im fuckin pressed.
Take a moment to think about what i see.
All i see are ghosts of […]
Pain is thay friend you keep close as you cut. It’s what’s needed to survive the depression. Pain grows and is fed through self hate. Self hate can be acquired through any means, although some self hate is stroger than others’ self hate. The difference between me and you is that when you wake up, your nightmare ends. I used to live in fear of death. But i turned that fear into self hate to feed the mature pain that has been accumulated inside of me since i was born. That pain gave birth to a hate of life and everything that falls within that […]
What is life? Is it what we believe it to be? Is there a god? Is there evil? Why do i hate myself? Why do i hate life?……well i will answer every question that everyone has without knowing the specific questions. In order to understand what I’m about to write, you need your thinking caps turned on and tuned up all the way, and you must keep an open mind. I’ve eaten from the forbidden fruit of knowledge and I’m sharing the truth. God doesn’t exist and hell is life. I will use common sense, logic, and science and actual facts to prove everything…..in order […]
After middle school, Isaiah decides to do somethinf about the bullying. He works out everyday, starts getting his hair cut, and begins to change his overall appearance. At the age of 14, he begins to feel better about life. Why? Because not only is he looking and feeling different, but people are treating him differently. People begin to become nicer to him. For once he begins to feel love and attention that he never recieved as a child. He doesn’t know how to handle it so he eats the attention up and becomes a bully himself. He unconsciously wants to spread pain to other people. […]
Enjoying the story so far? GOOD. Before i continue with this part, i will give important facts to remember because it makes the story even better. Isaiah grew up going to a christian church. I know, I know, he grew up with pious pricks, but yeah he was raised with good morals and values. And he always went to either a christian or catholic school. And he also went to summercamps after each school year and recieved the same treatment he recieved from school at summercamps and his church. Isaiah grows up not being able to trust his legal guardians, authority figures, or students. Isaiah […]
Because Isaiah had no biological mother or father in his life, his grandparents and aunt claimed legal guardianship. Isaiah fears his legal guardians. Why? Because they gave him a lot of ass whoopings he did not deserve. During his elementary school years, Isaiah is bullied, teased, and harrassed constantly by his classmates and students of higher grades. Isaiah taught himself another skill besides lying. He taught himself how to withdraw himself. You see Isaiah knew that people didn’t want to be bothered with him, so he withdrew himself to reduce the chance of adding to the pain he was already enduring. One of the ways […]
Hello there. Wanna hear a story? Well let’s take a look inside my head shall we? This story will consist of different parts and depending on how much i feel like typing, that’s how much of the story that will be posted. Anywho, let’s continue. Once upon a time there was a man who went by the name of Rodney. Rodney was addicted to cocaine. Rodney found a woman who was also addicted by the name of Renita. The two have a child and abandon that child to die. This child’s name is Isaiah. Growing up, Isaiah’s word was never believed. He would tell the […]