im ready……….ready to end this…….. if only i could do it myself……
i feel so alone 🙁
so used so unwanted
please im done for the day
pleasee just take me away
please help me threw this
please dont make me suffur
ive been hurt
ive been abused
ive been broken and beaten down
im tried of living this way
always the one lied too
always the one hurting
always the one crying
just please someone help me help me
no one sees the hurt ive been threw
or the broken soul behind my eyes
the tears that they have cryed
the words that killed my thoughts
the looks that made me feel so small
im sorry heart for the pain youve been threw
im sorry head for the thoughts i made you think of
im sorry wrists for the cuts i put on you
im […]
i have this feeling inmy stomic like theres something inside me eating me from the inside out its a pain that i get at random times and it soemthings hurt so bad i can t even walk i dont want to move it just hurts its like under my lungs and the left side of stomic it moves around sometimes to different place and it kills i dont know whats wrong??? the frist time i got the feeling i was in the middle of having sex with my bf and i couldnt do it it just hurt soo bad i couldnt even get up and […]
being hurt sucks not knowing what to do, where to go but you know what im gonna get where im going one day or another maybe one day ill break down but today im standing tall and looking down at the world all the pain and hurt but also all the love and care so i think i might just make it caus im done giving a FUCK and finally gonna live im gonna do what i want say what i want and go where i want becuase i dont give two flying FUCKS about anyone anything or whatever comes my way i am my […]
someone plesee kill me now i just want to get out of this hell hole pleaseee i cant take it anymore everything is just going so wrong im soo alone in this world i need to leave and i think im going too very very soon
i always wanted to know what it feels like to get a knife threw you  but like i cant put a knife threw myself by myself i dont know whyy but i just cant do it im to scared of whats on the other side if you know what i mean thats why im just waiting for someone to do it for me i love fights getting into them is amazing feeling i think i just like the pain that comes from it but who knows everytime i close my eyes i just get this dream where im fighting some chick and going all out too […]
take me way to a better place things havent been so great down here theres evil everywhere in the deep and darkest place and right in the light right infront of your face looking at you watching you as you look over your shlouder wondering when they will strick when they will take you away when they will make your life even worse then it already is… some people have an angel watching over them others have a demon making things worse for them every corner they take every move they make watching them as you sit there not kowning what to do next how […]
being hurt is possibly the worse feeling someone can ever get it feels like your being punished for the mastikes you made in life not knowing how much it could acturally hurt someone by saying the wrong thing or saying nothing at all being treated like your not there that noone can see you so noone can hurt you but that hurts more being treated like a pieced of trash that you can just throw away isnt how your suppost to make people feel everyone desreves to live life the way they want too and not give a care in the world but as the […]
im 14 years old i just had my heart broken with a guy that abused me and even tho he did i still miss him and i feel heartbroken caus now he has a gf and it was one of my old friends i thought i had people there for me but i guess not all my girls left me caus he never let me go hangout with them i always had to be with him and him only i wasnt allowed talking to other guys and he break up my best guy friend i know i should hate him but i dont……i have scars […]
i feel as if my feelings are slowly leaving me………..?
my heart is broken yet again for the boy i once loved…….?
the blade threw my arm is raining red…………?
my fears no longer scared me as they once did…….?
missing you doesnt seem to matter much more then before………..?
the courage i once had is moving on……..?
the hate burnning inside me is almost out……..?
things dont scared me………..?
make me sad………..?
or angery……?
they just slowly leave me……?
and never come back…………….?
i have this feeling of going to the bridge in my townÂ
 walking into the middle of it then standing up on the side
as the cars past behind me i can feel the eyes looking at me as the voices go on talking and talking
 i hear a man say “what is she doing? someone help her” but no one comes to my rescue
they all just watch me standing on the side waiting to jump
i look down seeing the water past under my feet all the way down
it looks higher but i think to myself that it cant be
im crying by this time the tears fall down into […]
weed starts as a seed its all i really need it fells so right in my pipe i think it might die tonight it puts my boyfriend to fright caus it means we cant fuck all nightth only time he wants to see me is when im on my knees his like come on ***** please weed starts as a seed its all i really need it feels so right in my pipe i think i might die tonight i sit in my jeep and the boys yell out damn that ***** is ceep i like my whiskey hard like my boys i cant die […]
you knew what was going on
you knew i was hurting
you knew i was cutting
you knew i was crying
YOU KNEW!
so why didnt you care?
A SHOT to kill the pain
A PILL to drain the shame
A PURGE to stop the gain
A CUT to break the vein
A SMOKE to ease the crave
A DRINK to win the game
An addictions and addiction
because it always hurts the
SAME </3
I have spent nights with matches and knives,
leaning over ledges only two flights up.
Cutting my heart, burning my soul, nothing left to hold.
Nothing left but the blood and the fire
when you die what happens? is it jsut blacknesss or is there really a “heaven” and you see the ones that already passed before?? WHAT HAPPENDS?
what happens when you die? is it just blackness like some people tell me or is there really a “heaven” and when you die you see your ones that has passed before you? not many people will mind when i die i mean nothing to no one…no one needs me around i would die right now if i could but im scared to see what the other side is and what might happen and if i do die my little cousin she looks up to me ive saved her once she almost killed her i was so scared that i lost her i didnt know […]