i have this feeling of going to the bridge in my townÂ
 walking into the middle of it then standing up on the side
as the cars past behind me i can feel the eyes looking at me as the voices go on talking and talking
 i hear a man say “what is she doing? someone help her” but no one comes to my rescue
they all just watch me standing on the side waiting to jump
i look down seeing the water past under my feet all the way down
it looks higher but i think to myself that it cant be
im crying by this time the tears fall down into the river as i watch themÂ
i take the ring off my finger that the man ilove gave to me
i place it down nice and easy so it wont fall
i take one big breath close my eyes then i jump
i hear people screaming then it slowly goes away
im almost down now i hear the water getting louder and louder
and as i hit the water my heart stops………………..
i just wish i could really do it now instead of waiting for so long
this will be the way i would end my life the way i want to go and i will
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IT WAS SUPPOST TO SAY “I DONT KNOW HOW TO CONTROLL THIS FEELING”
Just so you know..I would go up to you and talk to you. Try to figure out why you’re feeling this way. cuz it seems to me like you don’t think anyoone would care if you did this. But I would. and everyone has a story that needs to be heard.
i tried this once…the water was too deep and the bridge wasnt high enough…all i did was break a leg
Well, you are some what similar to the way I have felt. I lack the courage and wonder if I did end it what would come tomorrow. What would I have missed. Perhaps the day I found a soul mate and happiness. They say that suicide is a cowards way out. They do not know how much courage it really takes.
Others do not understand depression and thinking they also get sad some days is depression. I found that Vicadan helps. I got a doctor to prescribe. It does help. For pain but works. Hard to get.
My brother used a gun but I was a hunter and cannot use that method. Perhaps a penPal would help.
a penpal? you would like someone to help you comment suicide? and your brother used a gun to end his life he must have so much courage the courage that i wish to have i will soon but the only thing keeping me alive is my little cousin shes a year younger then me and shes already tired to hang her but i stoped it and if i end my life with the courage i have right now would be enough but i would also end her life and thats something i could never do