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Lonesome sometimes (final)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

But, sometimes her memory can get to me. Like her artwork hanging up in one of our similar classes, or seeing her eat quietly to herself during lunch hour. Brings up the painful memories of our happy times together. And this makes me lonesome sometimes. I am happy don’t get me wrong, but I just feel that hole that she created in me when I think about it. My story often reminds me of the song “Yesterday” by my most favorite band The Beatles. And sometimes when I listen to it, the memories of it all come flooding back to me.

I’ve shared my story before […]

7/28/2012 2 comments

Lonesome sometimes (part 9)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

I’d like to tell you guys that my friend came back to me with a understanding face and that we made time to work things out. I’d like to tell you that she stood up to her mom and that she gained some independence from her. I’d like to tell you that we’re still friends. But life isn’t always ideal, and sometimes not very kind to those who are patient. I will tell you guys one thing for a fact. I am really happy now.

And that I’m happy I’ve moved on from her. I’ve made some great new friends and have a wonderful boyfriend who […]

7/28/2012 15 comments

Lonesome sometimes (part 8)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

Sometime after our unforetold split up, one of my friends well.. friends( to many friends XC) Had stayed the night with my friend. I was sorta friends with her, and as the friendly, (stupidly) nice gal I am asked her how she was on (none other than) Facebook. She said she was doing fine and that she and my (ex.)friend were having a sleepover. I asked her to tell my friend I said hi. But she told me (kinda like HAL from 2001: A Space Odyssey) I can’t do that hun’.

I could have just left it at that, but I foolishly continued asking her why. […]

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Lonesome sometimes (part 7)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

My mom had at the time helped me to understand the gravity of what happened, what I’ve done, and what the future of my friendship to my friend looked like. My moms prediction- Not good (and if my mom felt something to be true, it was most likely true.) I had felt that I would get an answer like that , but at least I had an answer. (because I knew that my friend’s mouth wasn’t budging and neither was her mother’s.)

My mom had told me that I should let go of my friend, because as she put it was ” Tragically ended.” It pained […]

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Lonesome sometimes (part 6)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

After all that happened with my friend, I came back to my mom for condolence and would ask her where I went wrong. My mom is like a best friend to me and I know that I can always count on her for some insight or advice. My mom had told meÂ that she kinda knew that this would happen someday. She told me that she and my friend’s mom never really got along, because of the fact that my friend’s mom was a unusual personality. My mom told me that my friend’s mom had always been really protective over her (that I could kinda […]

7/28/2012 5 comments

Lonesome sometimes (part 5)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

My trip to the guidance office proved to be as hopeless for solace as I figured. My guidance councler is a very nice and upbeat woman, but at the time of my arrival that day, she seemed to be handling other jobs of her own. Even though I was really upset at that point, I was really just glad to sit in a chair and get away from my friend for a while.

I regained my composure and I sat in the chair with much embarrassment. I felt embarrassed for being in there and I felt more embarrassed that I let everyone see me so upset […]

7/28/2012 1 comment

Lonesome sometimes (part 4)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

For those of you still reading my story, I thank you. This story I’m telling is a little bit like closer for this chapter in my life. And I hope that reading all this isn’t as bad for you as I am typing it.

In the end of my relationship with my friend, I had reached my boiling point with my friend and her mother. I had told my friend that enough was enough and that her mother had to let her grow up. I was crying and kinda being loud with her, because it hurt me, that I felt this pressure. My friend passive-aggressively was […]

7/28/2012 4 comments

Lonesome sometimes (part 3)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

I could understand that my friend had loyalty to her mother, but not once did she ever really seem to regard my feelings. This added to the stress I had with her. Another time that created a rift in our relationship was when I went to the local fair with her, my friends mother, and her father. Originally we were supposed to go together at a certain time, but I would call her house and she wouldn’t tell me if she was coming with me or not, so I decided to go with another friend.

We were having a good time the first half of the […]

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Lonesome sometimes (part 2)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

My friend kinda had privilege from the beginning, which made her a little selfish in the way she handled things. Well, our relationship started coming apart when her mom saw how affectionate I was with her. (And not kissing or anything, but I was kinda needy when it came to affection back in 9th grade.) I would hug her alot, well my friend wasn’t this huggy with anybody (not even to her mom as far as I could tell.)

My friend had also, been friends with another girl in the past, who was really affectionate (like call her on the phone everynite obsessively affectionate.) My friend’s […]

7/28/2012 5 comments

Lonesome sometimes (part 1)

by redisblue101 7/28/2012

written by redisblue101

Sometimes, I just think about one of my old friends and how close we used to be. She was my best friend and we did so many things together. She was a very shy person and wasn’t one to talk openly to people. I knew her since childhood and we were friends in the past but up until my Freshmen year of High School, we had drifted apart from one another.

We soon became close friends again. And part of the reason being that at that time I had a very small group of friends. I was awkward in Middle School and seemed to rarely speak […]

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