I started drinking and smoking pot around age 12. before I went into puberty, Now i am 23 and my bones have not developed. My wrists and hands are smaller than most childrens. I also have gynocomastia (development of breasts due to hormonal imbalances). It seems my hormones are fucked. I have no sex drive and no ambition. Ive been rejected by many females for my feminine qualities. My father killed himself when i was 17, and all my life since then Ive just wanted to be a man and take care of myself and my family…now im developing into a fucking woman! I had […]
Today I told my mother I was depressed and, at times, suicidal. About 5 years ago my father committed suicide, throwing himself off of the roof of his office building. My family was and still is devistated. A few years ago one of my best friends hung himself. I have had many issues with close friends and girlfriends rejecting me after getting to know me. My family is not very open about their feelings and myself being the only male makes it very hard for me to talk about this stuff.
I was 17 when my father left. I am now 23 and have been feeling […]