I started drinking and smoking pot around age 12. before I went into puberty, Now i am 23 and my bones have not developed. My wrists and hands are smaller than most childrens. I also have gynocomastia (development of breasts due to hormonal imbalances). It seems my hormones are fucked. I have no sex drive and no ambition. Ive been rejected by many females for my feminine qualities. My father killed himself when i was 17, and all my life since then Ive just wanted to be a man and take care of myself and my family…now im developing into a fucking woman! I had such a fucked childhood I am not up for living the rest of my life as a half woman half man. I have family visiting this week and I think after they leave I will throw myself off the parking garage where I park everyday for work. Just not up for God’s fucking jokes. I know people have it worse off for me but for me, this is the worst thing that could happen. Cheers all
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Don’t kiil yourself for your look!
Have you been to a doctor?
Maybe he can give you manlythings.. (Don’t know the english name.)
panda is correct.
You may need hormone therapy to develop the masculine traints you desire.
I really doubt alcohol and pot were the ONLY culprits.
you may have a genetic predisposition to more estrogen in your body.
I’d recommend you go get a full hormone panel from a doctor and explain to him how you feel and go from there.
U.N. Owen is right on target.
It wasn’t the drugs or alcohol, you have a hormone imbalance. Go see a doctor. Taking your own life will not help you or your family and friends.
Take Care and Stay Strong…
Once you see a doctor and sort the hormone problem out, theoretically you should return to complete normality.