Believe it or not, I do want to die.
Its not that I just got upset over something and am having a drama episode. The thoughts have gotten stronger over the last decade. I am unemployed, financially ruined and at my age, its not worth the effort.
However, I am having a hard time killing myself. Its like my body is working against my mind. I live in NYC and although I thought about it a hundred times, I cant bring myself to jump off a building or bridge. Its almost like I have too much respect for my body to mutilate it more than necessary. I […]