I was diagnosed with PTSD a year ago and since that time I have been having strong thoughts regarding suicide. I have been hospitalized against my will three times in a year. I can’t work and I can’t get out of my own way. I guess I gave up on everything including life. Spending hours and hours online looking for the best ways to end my life. Then yesterday, for no reason, I just said, this is ridiculous. I have to stop thinking this way. I was obsessed with killing myself. Obsessed. I don’t know, out of nowhere I realize that death isn’t the answer.