I write this wondering if my life is going anywhere… I don’t know where I’m going, or what I’m gonna do with my life, and there’s so much pressure… Everybody wants me to be perfect.. But I can’t… I can only be me.. And that’s not good enough and I contemplate ending it all sometimes… And I fear my urges to self harm will take over.. Its a constant battle all the time, for my own insanity… To keep your head up and keep all the pain inside cause your all alone… So alone… Nobody to help, to guide you.. The emptiness inside is overwhelming… […]
This might seem like a pointless text, but I do need help with something… You see, there’s this girl, and she really fucking awesome, and I would like to try take it further than friendship, but I have doubt, we’re almost completely the opposite, I’m shy, quite and prefer to be by myself and I have attachment issues, while she is confident, loud, and loves to be around people XD but I don’t know if its really worth it… The last time I was close to somebody like this and they said they would be there, ended leaving, and left me with many scars, physical […]
I remember one year ago round about this time I was one of the happiest people on earth, nothing could bring me down.. So now I wonder, what the fuck could of thrown me so far off course.. Last year I was a clean, happy, guy with not a care in the world.. Now, I’m high every single day, have slits across my arms/wrists and the love of my life gone… I messed up my life so much, its such a pain to carry on, it hurts so much, when I think of all the good times and how great it was, then I realize […]
I feel so alone, abandoned, there’s nobody to help, nobody to tell me everything’s gonna be alright, nobody to catch me whenever I fall, I’m alone,,, left to die.. And right now… I wish I was dead
My dad suck fucking dick!!!!!!! He’s such an asshole and all he ever does is irritate everybody . And whenever he drinks he always has something else to blame it on like its never his fault and he’s such a fucking saint, and he’s forever judging people like he’s so much better then they are, like he’s fucking perfect,,, I can’t even stand to look at his face, it revolts me and I have to control myself from hurting him, why can’t he just disappear and fuck off!!!!!!!!
I still love her.. Its been several months yet I can’t stop thinking about her, I still talk to her everyday but I just smile and tell her I’m happy for her because I just want her to be happy.. But inside I wanna die.. I still cut myself regularly, think about suicide everyday, and its killing me, I can’t talk to anybody, I’m alone, I have so much self hatred for letting things happen the way they did, for letting her go, she was the only one who got me,, and I let her go,,, when we see each other she pretend not to […]
i feel so alone, like there’s nobody here to help me and I’m just spiraling down and down and nobody’s there to stop me, i feel so alone, so helpless, everybody’s abandoned me, just left me for dead, and that’s exactly what i want to be right now, DEAD, but every time i get serious about killing myself i just think of the pain I’m gonna cause people, how many peoples lives ill ruin just because i wanted to be selfish, so maybe i wont do it now, but if things carry on the way they are, then that wont be enough to stop me […]