saraa

I honestly don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I have a great family, several friends -an average life.

So why do I feel this bad about my life? Why do I think about suicide so many times a day? I’ve even planned my ‘dream suicide’.

I read everywhere about depresssion and the advice seems to be to talk to people about it. But I’m too shy to go to a doctor and too embaressed to tell my family or friends. They wouldn’t take me seriously anyway, they wouldn’t understand why I have such a want to die. I don’t even understand.

I’ve heard very few […]

I hate myself so much. I forced myself to go to a friend’s meal this evening but it was horrible. I spent most of the time sat there trying not to cry, feeling stupid because I had no reason to. I have a very small group of close friends that I can actually hold a conversation with and I was sat next to one but she’s a very popular girl so she ignored me most of the night and talked to everyone else.

I hate that I can’t just talk to people when everyone else does it so easily. I hate that I have no […]