I don’t know why. I have a chronic compulsion to die within me for the past years. Maybe it is because of my selfishness; I cannot accept my sister. Things are not the exact same and fair between us. That is unacceptable to me because I am adamant about how we must have the same treatment. Maybe it is because of how my parents screamed at me over the most trivial things, threw kettles of boiling water at me, hurled random objects across the room when they were angry – most of the time my mom being mad over my breach of her hard-to-achieve perfectionism. […]
sempiternal
The caged bird sings through the cold metal bars
The notes of melancholy echoing on the distant Mars
Its melody voicing the freedom it will never have
The calls for rescue reaching only the ears of the seemingly deaf
The caged bird sings through the cold metal bars
The notes of melancholy echoing on the distant Mars
The tune speaks of its heart filled with bitter pain
As it tried to free itself but in vain
The caged bird sings through the cold metal bars
The notes of melancholy echoing on the distant Mars
With wrath for the mortal and the iron it sobs
Beneath […]
Hey I have a wish
You just needa give your wand a swish
I don’t want to waste my breath
I said I wished for death
No, I’m not being a drama queen
Nor is it in any way related to being a teen
Let me fall asleep and never wake up
Then my existence will cease to disrupt
My family I had wanted to poison
I thought maybe I would never be forgiven ( probably )
Getting arsenic mailed causes suspicion
Or maybe some meds I could have stolen
The simplicity of an ending I once believed
Now I know ain’t that easy achieved
today’s night is wispy
my vision is misty
ethereal wishes soar
light and free
breezes blow
thoughts flow
the scent of death
perfuming the air
sweet as sugar
cold as ice
ahead looms a figure
glinting red eyes
a hand he raises
scaly and coarse
yet with ever so much grace
though his voice hoarse
pretty as a petal
steely as metal
he beckons me forward
and so i follow
but not because i’m cornered
the world beyond tempts me ever so
the alluring promise of no sorrow
i know where i’m going…
To the stars and beyond
I don’t know why. I have a chronic compulsion to die within me for the past years. Maybe it is because of my selfishness; I cannot accept my sister. Things are not the exact same and fair between us. That is unacceptable to me because I am adamant about how we must have the same treatment. Maybe it is because of how my parents screamed at me over the most trivial things, threw kettles of boiling water at me, hurled random objects across the room when they were angry – most of the time my mom being mad over my breach of her hard-to-achieve perfectionism. […]