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biding my time. If anyone wants to talk privately or be a friend, let me know asap. I tend to not check here a lot. I have private secure email which i ask the same of you too. Im wondering what is the best way to discrete,y go about something. I feel like this place is watched. Watche dby paychologists, ha, yeah pay, and god knows who else. I know its time for me now.

Im not worth investing in.

no one cares enough to help me financially to get well. And make my qulaity of life better.

Only one person would miss me.

i wish i could read […]

And i know this is the right decision for me. Ive just had enough. I cant afford to live, much less be well. And im so, so, so very tired of suffering.

I havent been here since i lost my friend from here. He was successful.

Peace at all costs

I pray i can find a way soon. I just want to go to sleep forever.

i was last here 2015. I know this is my destiny. My body hurts too much, my heart is broekn beyond repair.

I dont want hope. I have already reached my peak. Ive had enough.

To myself to do what I decided. Its too late. It has been proven that no one will care for me financially or emotionally. Everyday I need more that I cant afford. I will not continue to watch myself go down.

I’ve lived pretty long, long enough.

Sick of being subtly abused when I ask for help- brushed off, ignored. Promised help, then ignored. Act like they understand, then ignore and forget me. Like Im not important. Like what they chose to do and think about is better than me. Like theyre scared of my problems, like thye dont want to get invokved. How do you think I […]

ive been reading for a couple of years. But i need to remind myself to come here regularly to make sure that i do indeed persue with all expediency.

i was pushed too far end of dec. just too much to take. It has been bad the past two years, 3 years and i knew it was coming to this. I believed there were anwsers to my myriad of health issues, mainly hormones, i still know there is, but on disability, an insult to my intelligence, to name anyone that, but i cant afford it.

I can’t afford to live. And i refuse to continue.

my lovedog just […]

Why do they make it so difficult to die or kill yourself? I never read about successful methods. I need to know so I dont fail. My situation is such, they would take over control of my life if I failed. Ive been miserable for years, things are not gonna change, they just keep getting worse. i can’t talk about this to anyone I know, they will just project and say shit, like we need you etc. , things will get better, they always do, fuck that lie! Easy for the rich and taken care of and haves,  to say. I dont care about anyone […]