I don’t know how to not push the pain away anymore. There’s something inside of me that I can’t get out. All this sadness, pain and suffering is about to burst. I wake up and think to myself, “Again? I have to do this all over again?”. I don’t have the guts to kill myself but I believe I shouldn’t be able to use that easy way out. Maybe I was meant to suffer. I’m stuck in my head and I can’t get out. No matter how much I yell and scream I’m just sent further back into this black hole that’s always crushing me. […]
I’m not sure who to talk to anymore. I have a girlfriend, but I can’t talk to her about my depression or else she will get depressed and it’s a whole big thing that I hate going through again. We recently got a dog to help cope with my depression but the dog is attached like glue to my girlfriend. I try hard to spend time and play with the dog and even when I’m in the same too the dog will go and sleep in a different room until my girlfriend comes home. It’s a sucky feeling. I feel like I’m the one being […]
I love my friends with all my heart, but it really seems like they just don’t care about me. Saying they do is one thing, but doing is another. Whenever they need help, I’m there. Whenever they need anything, I’m there. It could be just a small problem and I’ll listen to them no matter what. I have picked them up in the middle of nights many times. I do things without expecting a thank you in return. But whenever I’m feel sad or hurt they just give some one-liner bullshit like “Oh, I’m sorry.” Then they move on with their day. I’ll be honest […]
I will cry myself to sleep tonight again like I have been doing for the past couple of months. Been hurt a lot this past month. I just wish any of my friends would give me a hug out of the blue and tell me that everything is going to be ok. I would probably break down and cry my heart out if that happened. It never does, though. I’m so sad inside that I can cry so easily. It’s like my emotions are a pot of water spilling over. Sometimes I ponder when I was last happy. I honestly don’t know. But I have […]
I’m still pretty clueless when it comes to women. I just don’t understand them. I can ask them out, but the whole relationship part I can’t do. I’ve told her I changed and then I opened up to her to damm fast. That’s when everything fell apart in my view of it all. I cried to her and told her I was sad all this shit. She then broke off whatever it was we had and said she just want to be friends. When she told me that I could surely tell you that my heart just sank to the bottom. It was like if […]
To whom it may concern,
I gave her all I have left within my heart. My hope of knowing what love is like or how it feels has failed. She was all I had left to hold onto. She was my reason to live. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. I would do anything for her. There is no blame to be set upon her. I am the one to blame. I have screwed up once again and always have been. Reader, I do not ask for your sympathy for I know I will not accept it. Today on this […]
I have seriously had enough of everyone! I put my trust in someone and they don’t give a shit! I am sick and tired of putting my trust in people! I always end up getting hurt. I always screw things up. I’m sick and tired of being a dissapointment to everyone! I have a very quick temper and I don’t like it when people including my so called “friends” set it off. I feel like I’m going to explode!!!! But can I tell my friends or family how I feel? No, of course not! They couldn’t and will never understand the rage and pain in […]
Hey everyone it’s Silent23 again. I’m fairly new to this website and it’s helping me a lot. Ok today I am going to vent.
So I really like this girl, more like love her to death, but we are just friends and she has a bf who got in trouble with the law for doing drugs or something of the sort. She used to be a big druggy and now she has been clean for a couple months(for as much as I know) and I really want the best for her. You know, I listen to her, I am always there for her, I care about […]
I don’t know what to do anymore. I have so many questions that are unanswered. One second I’m happy and then one little thing could go wrong and I would be pissed off and sad for the rest of the day or week. I hate having these depressive mood swings. I have very low self eesteem and confidence in myself. I don’t know if I should open up to my friends or not. Somedays I want to be alone and somedays I don’t. I just want godamm hug! Just an out of blue type of hug and for that person to say ” I love […]
I have seriously had it with everyone. They say they care about me and all this other bullshit, but do they? Fuck no! I give everyone and even my so called ‘friends’ hints that I want a hug, but I never get it. That’s all I want. I just want someone to hug me and say ‘I love you’. And not even in the intamite kind of way just a care/love hug. I am noticing myself getting more pissed off everyday. No one gives a shit about me so why should I give a shit about them? Maybe I’m going crazy. That’s your opionon to […]