SilentOne

I literally just want to give up and escape reality because everyday I live is a constant reminder of how alone I truly am. 2012 was a horrible year, and I fear 2013 will be equally the same, if not worse. I’m 25 years old with no friends or social life, my family treats me like an outcast due to my low self-esteem and confidence, and having a speech impediments makes speaking 1000 times harder.  I can’t even hold a conversation without looking like a freak and my family thinks the solution to my many problems is giving me the cold shoulder.

I honestly wish I […]

How do people pick themselves backup when they have reached their lowest point? I don’t have friends to boost my morale and my family, especially my father, treat my problems as if they are insignificant. I hate waking up each day doing the same routine while I look at my peers making something of their lives and building friendships and relationships. I want to have something worth waking up for, but I feel as if I’m stuck in the same process that will never end.

I have made a promise to myself to work on my speech, so I can at least control my stutter.

I have […]

I hate everything about my father. From the way he looks at me, shuns me, and treats me like a common stranger when I’m at home. I don’t know what I did to deserve growing up with someone so spiteful for the way I am. He does nothing to encourage me and the only thing I hear from his mouth is criticism. I hate being around him and the fact that I have to see him everyday is a nightmare in itself. I know hate is a strong word, but if you had my father, you’d feel the same. No one should have to feel […]

It’s sad when the people who are suppose to love you are the ones that hurt you the most. I try and confide my feelings to them and I’m left feeling worse than I originally did. Thanks Mom for ignoring who I am and pretending my problem doesn’t exist. Thanks Dad for dismissing my feelings and treating me as your verbal punching bag. Thanks sister for being a constant reminder of what I missed out on.