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skeletonsInthecloset

im depressed. i was born in 1997. looking for answers. im a girl also.

by skeletonsInthecloset 5/2/2014

written by skeletonsInthecloset

the other night I was crying

and thinking about dying

I grabbed my knife and felt the familiar sting from my addiction to cutting.

i laid back and I felt dizzy. probably from the blood I lost.

looked down at my arms and legs and wondered who could love a girl like me.

then my beautiful little cat snuggled up against my cut up arm gently. put her paw against them and laid there until I stopped crying. like she knew what was going on. like she knew I needed any kind of comfort in that moment.

maybe if my cat can still love me there’s hope for people to.

5/2/2014 1 comment

I’m alone.

by skeletonsInthecloset 5/1/2014

written by skeletonsInthecloset

I’m alone. and maybe it’s better this way. I told the guy I’ve been in love with for almost a year now. to leave me alone. I’ve isolated myself from my family. I can’t even find the strength to get up and go to school for the last two days. I don’t want to go back on anti depressants. but I don’t know how to be okay right now. a part of me feels like it’s missing. I said things I didn’t mean but I know they were better to say then try make people understand the truth.

i still don’t want to live. i still […]

5/1/2014 1 comment

today seems like a good day to go.

by skeletonsInthecloset 4/27/2014

written by skeletonsInthecloset

school starts tomorrow again.

nothing to look forward to there. friends who don’t care about me. teachers who dont try to help me but simply try find every way to get me kicked out. I’m fighting for my education. failing computer class. that’s only the beginning of it. my boyfriend left me. because he doesnt wanna deal with my bullshit anymore. can I blame him? I’m suicidal, I’ve got hundreds of cuts on my arms, legs, stomach. My family disowned me. I’m only 16. last week I went to jail for beating a girl up. a girl who deserved it but I hit her first. now […]

4/27/2014 1 comment

Confusion

by skeletonsInthecloset 5/27/2013

written by skeletonsInthecloset

Its mad confusion. It suffocates, it drowns me, and it is out of control. This weekend was one of the most amazing weekends of my life but now im left sinking in confusion… So here’s how it went.

Firstly, I am a Christian. And yes im suicidal.

Secondly, I am a cutter. I have scars all over my body. this last week I had been cutting my entire arms up. I stopped eating and when I had to eat I would puke it up. It started when my ex-boyfriend broke up with me. Then my ex-boyfriend told me “you aren’t suicidal, you just seek attention” then he […]

5/27/2013 6 comments

pay to fall.

by skeletonsInthecloset 5/9/2013

written by skeletonsInthecloset

here, i am.

on the top of this building, again.

i’ve hesitated, i’ve believed.

but nothings getting better, for me.

i jump, free fall.

But i realize its not free at all.

As i look into my families eyes

As i watch my bestfriends cry

As i watch him scream in pain.

As i watch them throw me in a grave.

But i have already jumped.

I hit the ground with a final thump.

i open my eyes.

i see the pain begin

I have payed the toll.

And watch the devil burn my soul.

5/9/2013 0 comment

Hi..

by skeletonsInthecloset 5/8/2013

written by skeletonsInthecloset

my names shavon. im 15. i feel like one of those people from alcoholics anonymous. but really im suicide anonymous. i tried to commit suicide before. my arms are full of scars. my mom started physically and emotionally abusing me when i was 8. ever since then ive been looking for someone that could help me. nobody in my family helped me. i had a boyfriend named kody. and he used me and took my virginity. i tried to kill myself and he didnt even text me at all while i was in the hospital. i pushed my way through to recovery and got over […]

5/8/2013 2 comments