today seems like a good day to go.

school starts tomorrow again.

nothing to look forward to there. friends who don’t care about me. teachers who dont try to help me but simply try find every way to get me kicked out. I’m fighting for my education. failing computer class. that’s only the beginning of it. my boyfriend left me. because he doesnt wanna deal with my bullshit anymore. can I blame him? I’m suicidal, I’ve got hundreds of cuts on my arms, legs, stomach. My family disowned me. I’m only 16. last week I went to jail for beating a girl up. a girl who deserved it but I hit her first. now I can’t leave Canada. that was my plan. I have nothing here for me and I’m stuck here. I have nothing. I had to quit my job because someone 8 years older than me wouldn’t leave me alone. no one would protect me from him. someone I used to call my bestfriend rolled my brand new vehicle. I even gave up my Xbox one for a $500 car. it broke in 3 days. I now have no money. no job. no one to help me. I don’t have money for simple things like shampoo or a pair of jeans or a pair of shoes. I don’t have money for school supplies or make up or a gym membership. I swear I am the most ugly pathetic human being. I don’t know what to do. I want to die. it’s been 4 years that I’ve wanted to die. so why am I still scared to put a rope around my neck or stab a knife into my artery. I want to be gone.