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So Tired…

by sneezy66
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I can’t begin to explain how tired I am of everything.  Tired of being a failure, tired of the loneliness, tired of feeling like an alien that doesn’t belong anywhere, tired of not having any money, tired of putting on a brave face, tired of my shitty family, tired of having “trusted” friends stabbing me in the back, tired of hurting, tired of being hurt, tired of the sadness, tired of missing the only man I ever loved, tired of having everything go wrong, tired of the holidays … most of all, I’m tired of living.

I know people keep saying that tomorrow is the start […]

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What’s the Point of it All?

by sneezy66
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I’ve been thinking about my life a lot over the past 24 hours.  And I just don’t see the point of it.  The weird thing is that I’m not depressed (just a little sad) but mostly I’m resigned to the fact that my life is unbelievably shitty and has been for 45 years.  So why do I continue to subsist?  It just doesn’t make sense anymore.  I have nothing!  I have no job, no career,  no husband, no boyfriend, no loving, supportive family, no money, huge debt, a few friends but none of whom live near me because I’ve recently relocated – hoping to get […]

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Post-attempted suicide retrospective…

by sneezy66
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Hi, gang.  I just came across this website and decided to add my own two cents worth.  A little background on me is that I’m a 45 year old, single woman, who has a history of depression, a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, suicidal since the age of 13 or 14 (around the same time the sexual abuse happened), been through breast cancer treatment and hates her life.  In October 2010, I got caught up in the perfect storm of depression.  Unbelievably depressed, lonely and in physical pain, I decided I couldn’t handle it anymore.  I decided to take 14 Ambien in the hopes that […]

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