solace

I am totally useless, worthless… I am nothing. My inner voice of negativity is winning, and my mood swings are taking over. I want to cut again… I want to turn off all the lights, and cry in the dark.

I will never achieve anything, I am wasting my time and others. I am selfish, I am incredibly and irrefutably USELESS.

What’s the point of living when I have nothing to offer? There is no point….

I am on antidepressants and I have found it has completely fucked up my sexual gratification. I find that I can become aroused, to the point of orgasm. However, I find that I can’t really orgasm… If I do, then it’s half the sexual satisfaction it used to be.

Does anyone have some advice? Is this happening to others?

I am on Escitalopram.

This is really frustrating, please reply with any advice you have.

So I need some advice, I am full of guilt and so many emotions right now.

Back Story:

Within the last 2 months, my boyfriend of 4 years decided it would be easier for him to completely pack up and leave me without saying a word. He cut me out of his life and one day just stopped replying. He had told his family that we had split up (news to me) and had moved to a city about 2.5 hours away from me. Before blocking me on Facebook I seen that he has moved in with his new girl, they may not be dating but I […]

I haven’t been this suicidal for such a long time. I can’t even muster up enough energy to have a shower.

I want to die. I want the suffering to end.

If anyone is online right now please email me, I am having a huge panic attack and I am trying my best not to cut myself. If  I am left alone for too long I will..

Please help.

Hello all of those who are currently on or have ever been on anti-depressants.

I was wondering if you have seen a change in your sex drive? I have been considering going on them (I just have to fill in the script) and read up about how you can lose your libido completely even after you stop taking them.

This sounds stupid, but I want a normal sex life, it’s something that I really enjoy so I want to know more about this before I take them.

Thanks so much to anyone who replies to me. I really appreciate it!

So, I have finally seen someone about my mental health. They assessed me and gave me a diagnosis. I am glad to know that I wasn’t crazy all this time, and I wasn’t making it all up.

The psychiatrist said I have severe depression and indicators of Borderline Personality Disorder. I have thought that for years, I need help with my affect regulation.

It’s comforting to finally be told that, someone confirming what I have known for years.

However, they don’t have DBT around here, and my only other choices to get better are medication and seeing a clinical psychologist.

The only other thing that is left on my […]

I’m sick of posting about my brother, but sometimes I just don’t understand him at all.

Mothers day is coming up, he wants to take his wife and our mum to this expensive restaurant (I am a full time student and I have just got a new part time job, so still no money, plus I have bills coming up that are over $500). The cost is $80 a head for three meals, if I had the money I would go.

Anyway, mum has been really sick and can only eat bland food, my sister in law is really sick from being pregnant, but he refuses to […]

I need you right now… Where are you? Why have you left me?

I don’t see a point in living, the only reason I have lived up to now is because of you.  Why can’t I be stronger? Why do I have to fall apart all the time.

I want to die…

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I am completely broken down. I don’t want to suffer anymore, I can’t go through this alone, yet you are not here. You’re gone…. Why did you leave my side at a time like this?

I don’t want to go through this anymore. Fuck.

So after being unemployed for years (I have been going to University in the mean time) I think I may have found a part time job, bringing me lots of relief. Telling my friends, they congratulated me and one of them even gave me a card wishing me luck.

My friends and mum were very excited for me, keep asking me about it, and show happiness and congratulations everyday.

Is this the normal reaction?

In contrast my brother and his wife when told, just asked about the job, whether I had it yet or not (I am on trial) then changed the subject, they were visibly bored about […]

So I am really not coping right now, I think my boyfriend (been with him for 4 years) and I are going to break up. I am not sure if this is the right thing, but I can sense it coming anyway.

This is so hard to write.

He is my first everything, and I was wondering if you guys had any special tips you could give me, since a quick Google search doesn’t include mental health issues and you guys would understand that better.

I have severe depression, so I don’t know how I could ever cope with something so huge like this. I am not even […]

Hello!

I really want to discuss the Pros and Cons of using anti depressants. I have come to the stage in my life where I have had major depression for at least 6 years.

At the moment, it’s all catching up to me. I don’t want to feel anything, I want to be numb.  Please reply to this if you have ANY advice at all. I really don’t know what to do, and if you want more information about me feel free to ask.

Thank you.

That moment, when the voice in your head, your voice tells you over and over, like a mantra. “You are nothing”

All day, especially when I am alone, it says it continuously, over and over until I feel sick, to the point where I want to vomit.

I am saying it now, I have been alone for about 15 minutes, but I continue to say it, to myself.  “I am nothing, You are nothing”

When will the suffering be over?

Please just… be quiet.

Any one that wants to talk please email me

solace_@hotmail.com

I self harm, but because I have never had to get stitches or go to the hospital for anything I feel unworthy of that title. Like I am posing.

I constantly compare my scars and wounds with everyone else’s, I love seeing them and realise that I am quite obsessed with scars, burns, self harm in general. When I am close enough to see someone else’s arms or legs I can’t help but look at them, just in case they are like me… And when they are, I feel so inadequate.

I want to do more and more and more, because they make me beautiful, I believe […]