If it wasn’t for this website, Im sure i would have flipped… I still want to end my life.. but you guys… you guys made me want to live for a little longer. Im going to try and live that little longer… 🙂
I am a loser.. i can handle it
I have problems, Its going to take time to slove them
Just put on a smile for a show
Make them dance
Thanks Suicide Project
Im 12 and i dont hate my life as much anymore
It has been three months since I cutted and have visted this website… I have grown up alot, I Have had alot more of pains…. My mom still hits me for no reason…..And my friends still use me, and I dont Care! I still Love Ethan we have been dating for three or four months now!
Why was I born?
Why do people call us a “freak”?
Why are there monsters?
Why do people pass notes about other people?
Why do I act so….unmature than others?
Why Am I worth nothing more than a peice of shit?
Why Do I cut myself?
Why do people cry?
Why do people think I am fucked up?
Why do people pity me?
Cant they just end my life ad move on? Everyone would be alot happier…..Even I would be happy for once…….
I have one again cut mself……..As a 7th grader it finally got to the point where I just couldnt take it…….I ave cut myself because it makes a scar of……..sorrow,greed,and pain……….But at the point where i just cant take it is when I fell up the stairs yesterday….yes I know you are probably thinking, What the fuck? She fell UP the stairs? Wow such a loser!……… I am such a fail……..the reason I fell up the stairs is because my, so called “bestfriend”, pushed me then laughed. It crushed me so much I felt like I wanted to cry, then die, then die in […]
Today I remain as a 7th grader………….But today alot of things happend…..one of thoose things are….. is a 41 people called me a freak and a loser…..is that sad? One of thoose people was a 4th grader……is that even sadder? I mean my rely to them all was “I know I am a loser and a freak but do you ave to rub it in?”……….Is it sad that my mom steals money from me? Is it sad to laugh at a lol cat picture when you are all alone?
Someone told me that i should smile more?
I asked why? He said “because you look worred and sad all the time”
I repiled ” Well thats because I am”
He said back “Why?”
I told him my story and he laughed and walked away
Just then i started covering my life with a smile, a huge fake mask
maybe I should wear it for Halloween because “smiles” are scary because you never know what is hiding ehind them
He is my sunshine, my only,Ethan…….He is my moon……..He has his days and his bads…..Why is he my sunshine?
I hurt him before he was my sunshine……Now I cut myself ad been though alot and i know alot of you have been though way more….but….I wonder if I am his sunshine……………I love him…………………..because he is the person who I care about…………..I am 12 years old………Am I head over heels and obessed?
I woke up with a masive head
I woke up with vomit around me
I looked up and saw my mom giving me a mop
I cleaned my mess
Last Night I took a whole bottle of advil with some ibeprofen
Last Year I started to be “different”
Friday Septemember 28 I found out that i was eligbue to be in a school for talented “Special” Kids
Yesterday I found out i can pay to be in that school
Today I wish I took more pills
I hate being 12 years old
Tonight I am 12 years old and 5 months and some days old
Tonight I might end it
Tonight I may take some pills
Tonight I will probably get chronic organ disorders
Tonight I cut Myself
Tonight I dream about Happiness
Tomarrow I will wake up fine or with regret
In a week I will be in school, Sad with mixed emotions
In a mouth my good friends will be my worst enimes
In a year I will be closer to death
In a life time I will be dead, Happy
But
Tonight I will be dreaming about Ethan, oh how I love him,he is […]
I am empty……..I would rather have sadness then empty………is there a way to fill it
please dont say anything dirty
Life ia funny isn’t it?…..I mean when you actually do? Live it or hide in dark room, alone? I mean look at life….today in school there was a anti-bully speaker and it made me want to kill myself even more……………Parents just lie to you and say “Its ok” but it isnt is?……………Parents say they love you, but you can just tell they hate you ad think you are a failure?……..You start dating and your bf/gf leaves you heartbroken?……….If this ist true am I just a loser?……….or am I a long ass rollercoaster that ist fun anymore………ps i am a 12 year old girl
I took eight advils like three days ago, I am 12 years old a female, why didnt I die? I also cut myself on that day too…… Is there a very cheap way to die? oh ya and it would be nice if it was a fast way too…..I cant die with the car way because I dont have a garage…. If you could give me a link on how to tie a noose that would be great…..The only thing I am worried about is my boyfriend……or being discovered on the act of killing myself….
Where does it hurt the most to cut yourself? and where is the place where you can die from cutting yourself??? Oh Ya, I am 12 years old! I know this isnt really inportant but, I just want the pain to end……….
Hi, this is my frist post……
 I want to die and take my mom down with me. She has crushed me in so many ways I am sick of living. I am 12 years old, my mom drinks, smokes, and abuses. I have tried suffocating my self in water and with a pillow, I couldnt go through it…. I cant use a car because I don have a garage.. Since I just started 7th grade, it makes me depressed, I hate all of my teachers. I know they airnt there to be my friends but, its all the homework. I had have depression since I […]