Hi, this is my frist post……
 I want to die and take my mom down with me. She has crushed me in so many ways I am sick of living. I am 12 years old, my mom drinks, smokes, and abuses. I have tried suffocating my self in water and with a pillow, I couldnt go through it…. I cant use a car because I don have a garage.. Since I just started 7th grade, it makes me depressed, I hate all of my teachers. I know they airnt there to be my friends but, its all the homework. I had have depression since I was ten, becuase that is when my little/newborn sister died. That is when I got my first cat, my dad pays More attention to the cat instead of me……….If some people actually read this post , I am sorry about the spelling airs
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Sounds like your mom has problems like all of us…I would suggest trying to talk to her about why she is abusive, drinking is her choice, but I never understood why people become abusive when they drink, sheesh self control! But really be her therapist, or at least figure out why and let us know, alot of people here have good and very differing views. annoying half friends because you did their homework, not important honestly, should be a fairly small concern.
Hey, I am 1 year younger than you,and I see life in a depressing way too. But think about it, most of us facing depression issues hide, we hide under a person who’s happy and loves life. That’s why I’m so depressed, cause I hide, people look at me as that girl who doesn’t care if people sexually harass her,and make fun of her, but what people don’t know is that I cry myself to sleep at night… 🙁 P.S. Suicide isn’t the ONLY answer… <3<3<3
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I’ve gone through something like this when I was your age. My mom wasn’t a drunk, but she was a tempermental asshole. She abused me as well. Called me all sorts of names, blamed her shitty job on me, and claimed that I ruined her life. I never had a friend through seventh and eighth grade. It was all homework for me as well. People only talked to me if they wanted to use me for homework. That was it. The rule of thumb for this sort of thing was that I decided that I was going to work for me and only me. Fuck my mom, fuck my dad. They hated me, well they’re going to regret ever thinking that I was a failure. I don’t care what they think anymore. They might as well no exist now. I don’t care. You just need to live for you and you only. Ignore what they say, ok? Connect with your friends again, but make it clear that you are not meant for homework. You are a friend, not google.
i sorry for what you have been through