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Soroxen

What Have I Become?

by Soroxen 8/15/2013

written by Soroxen

Strength. Courage. Love. Happiness.

I thought I was strong, but these past few days have shown me otherwise.Â I’ve slowly been changing each and every day…and not for the better.

A few years ago, I used to be suicidal. I would only wake up in the mornings to think about death, cutting, and hatred. I hated the world around me and it hated me back. I had accepted that. I got no support from friends or family surrounding me so I had learned to depend on only myself. It took a few years, but I was able to get past all this. I had finally believed that I […]

8/15/2013 25 comments

Why can’t I let go?

by Soroxen 5/11/2013

written by Soroxen

It’s been one week since I’ve broken up with my first boyfriend and I still can’t seem to let him go…

It all started like this:

About 4 weeks ago, me and my friend were very bored on Facebook and decided to start a fake fight. We started commenting really mean things to each other (for the fun of it) and I get a friend request (actually 2) from this guy that just wanted to see and comment on our “fight.” Of course, me and my friend were Skyping with each other and I told her everything, and I accepted his request.

After 20 minutes or so, we […]

5/11/2013 7 comments

Why do I bother trying?

by Soroxen 4/1/2013

written by Soroxen

I’m such a hypocrite.

I talk big about staying positive and happy, yet I can’t find my own reasons for this. I’m literally so stressed out right now that I feel like I should just end my own life to end all this pain and torture.

Anything I ever do isn’t good enough. Whether it’s getting good grades, getting accepted to a good university, or to winning a sports tournament, nothing is good enough for my parents.

I’m a lazy person. That’s just who I am. A 17 year old girl that’s at the end of her senior year, who’s lazy and likes to lay in bed or […]

4/1/2013 3 comments

Please read~

by Soroxen 3/10/2013

written by Soroxen

To everyone out there that feels alone and feels like nobody cares…I care.

I know what it’s like to feel abandoned by those you trusted the most. I know what it feels like to have even your own family members act like they don’t care. I know how it feels to be unloved.

So please, PLEASE, don’t Â do anything rash or dangerous. Unlike those fake friends that say they’re “here for you” I really am here for everyone. I hope that people read this and understand that they’re not alone, and that no matter how tough life gets, it gets better; MUCH better.

I’m always here for anybody […]

3/10/2013 2 comments

Never give up :)

by Soroxen 2/11/2013

written by Soroxen

Hi guys!

So I’m sure a lot of you on here probably won’t read this (or even bother to) but that’s okay because I just want to share my story with everyone, and hopefully save a few lives 🙂

Growing up, I’ve always had a good life, or at least that’s what I believed. I’ve never had to worry about money or my health, although I am overweight, I don’t feel it’s life threatening or something to be extremely concerned with. Of course when middle school started, everything changed.

Middle school was a rough time for everyone. We’re all at the phase where we’re trying to fit in […]

2/11/2013 2 comments

When the world turns their back on you…

by Soroxen 1/22/2013

written by Soroxen

You disappear…

What have I done to deserve this?

I’ve always been the good child. The one who would eat all their veggies, do their homework, listen to their parents, do well in school and sports and yet I’m always the one at fault. Reading some of these posts, I really have no right to complain about my life because others have it worse than I do. I grew up with both parents, I’m healthy, and we don’t have to worry about money. What more could I ask? All I’ve wanted, was to have someone to love me or care for me. Unfortunately, some things in the […]

1/22/2013 21 comments