I take back all my SPÂ thoughts, Yes, right now my life sucks, but I gotta make it thru. I have friends that love me very much and a family that is part of every single moment of my life, I need to bring the love and the hope back, I want to be with them and I won’t if I don’t fight for my life… So, all the unfairness of this system, all the faceless mofos on the government can go and fck themselves to death! I’m not gonna kill myself … at least not now! (who knows? maybe tomorrow I will fall on despair […]
Don’t wanna breathe anymore, don’t want to think anymore, don’t wanna spend the rest of my life missing the good times, don’t wanna have a life without my family and friends, Don’t wanna have this life, some days life feels just like a sickness and death seems to be the only cure…Fucking life worth less than nothing.Â
My anxiety won’t go away… the pain on my chest, the breathless feeling, so out of my mind. My friends keep writing msg on FB, I cannot open them, they txt me and I can’t txt them back. Nothing to say, I love them, I miss them, and I know they love me back… But I don’t know how to tell them that I won’t be allowed back in Canada for a long long time, I don’t know how to tell them that I spend all my day at home reading posts on THE SUICIDE PROJECT website, I don’t know how to tell them that […]
Is not getting any better, I’m not getting any better,I’m  having an anxiety attack, I feel pain on my chest, arms and legs, my hearth is pounding so fast and I just feel I cannot do this anymore 🙁 I’m living my worst nightmare, I want to get better I just don
Something wakes me up ,  if  I am asleep I’m sleeping wih ghosts  if   I Am  awake I have monsters under my bed
I woke up around 3:00am trembling in fear after having one of my worst nightmares ever… my arms and legs still shaking and this feeling of pain in my chest won’t go away… falling down spiral…
Even though I think that it is ok for me  if I wanna die right now, the idea of someone else committing suicide makes me feel so sad!!
When I was a happy girl with no trouble everyone said they loved me, everyone wanted my company, but I started falling down, I didn’t do anything wrong it was just “life being a *****”… now I’m so alone… When I said to my friends “I’m sad” I cannot do this anymore” they freaked out and their only answer was: “Stop being so negative” “Don’t ever talk like this again”
So I come here… Lovely poem @sleepykarie91, nothing worst that the feeling of your friends  throwing you to oblivion
I wish I could die tonite, just to close my eyes and sleep forever, no more pain…
I always wake up in the middle of the night feeling this huge hole in my hearth,
Trying to cope with everything that happened to me… thinking about what can I do but at the end to kill myself seems to be the only way out.
I want to sleep so badly! a new day is about  to start, what I’m going to do?? nothing, just stay at home. I wish I had a self destruction button, push and disappear.
The fucking country were I was born it is making me more suicidal. Everyday I have to listen all kind of bullshit and stupidity, it is like everyone is trying to be as ignorant and rude as possible. Sick and tired, everytime I go out, I just can think: I hate this place if I have to stay here I will kill myself..
everyone will die (eventually) so what if I decide the end of my history??