NO ONE EVER ASKED ME IF I’M OKAY OR HOW AM I DOING. THEY’VE SEEN ME LAUGH, THEY’VE SEEN ME SMILE BUT THEY NEVER SAW HOW AM I WHENEVER I’M ALONE. EVERYBODY THINKS I’M PERFECTLY FINE (MAYBE BECAUSE THAT’S WHAT I SHOW THEM). EVERYONE AROUND ME THINKS I’M JOKING WHENEVER I TRY TO TALK ABOUT MY FEELINGS, SO I PRETEND TO BE HAPPY INSTEAD. YOU KNOW WHAT’S MORE SAD? THE PEOPLE YOU THOUGHT WHO ACTUALLY CARED FOR YOU ARE THE ONE’S WHO DIDN’T KNEW YOU AT ALL OR DIDN’T EVEN TOOK A CHANCE TO ASK IF YOU’RE FINE. NOBODY SAW HOW HARD IT IS FOR […]
There’s this boy who has the same age as me, we live in the same province, our schools were different, we’re friends of friends, he follows me in social media. I LIKE HIM SO MUCH SINCE 7TH GRADE. He doesn’t even know that I exist.
…THE END…
I want to die at the same time i want to live. I want to go forever in peace but I want to explore life in different perspectives. I live in hell, and everyday is a battlefield and i want to feel what heaven feels like. I’m craving for some time alone. I want to go to a place away from socialization, i want to walk away from everything even just for a while. Sometimes, i want to live and every moment, i’m searching for peace.
Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you’ll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others.
As I grow up, my Christmas list becomes shorter. It’s because the wishes I have can’t be bought by money or they’re too impossible to grant. I admit, i really miss the feeling of believing in Santa and hanging your favorite socks hoping he’ll drop some stuffs while you were asleep. I still remember how does it feels like to pretend to be asleep and hoping you’ll get the chance to meet Santa. I still remember how damn good it feels to celebrate this holiday with your family members and exchanging gifts with the ones you love.
Guess what? Those were just memories and it can’t […]