It’s been quite a while since I’ve been on, and I am here to report after my hiatus for so long that I have been recovering nicely, going through huge turning points within this year and last. My depression has gotten better, so have my schizophrenic tendencies. I am here to tell you, that I love you, and things do get better! maybe not now but with time. You are not alone, there is hope for you no matter what. Believe me I have been in your position many a time, it is a dark place within your mind that you seem to not be […]
Recently around last year, my boyfriend cheated on me with his ex-girlfriend, got her “pregnant” so she says… but then he chose me, and she mysteriously had a miscarriage.. he lied, badly to me, he mentally and emotionally abused me during that time. It affected me so bad.. I’ve always had problems with depression before but this was a terrible new low.. it’s been over 9 months since that happen.. we’re still together. But I changed, something snapped in my head, I’m paranoid. aside from that is just a story to share, I feel like I’ve fallen into a relapse I was “managing”. No one […]
I constantly feel depressed and it’s getting to a point where all i can think of is killing myself, and you know the funny part? I was Hoping to not make it to my 18th birthday which is this Sunday. It gets me even more depressed that I’m still not dead. Is that crazy? I think so. But I could care less, there is absolutely nothing wrong in my life.. at least that could attain from all this sadness I have. My boyfriend.. He’ a good person, but fuck he doesn’t understand my pain. No one does. I hate everything, nothing is ever good enough […]