I’m still here. But theres a problem again.

Hello, I have to say that this is the first time I have ever been to this site before and your post really stood out to me. It may have to do with the situation that you spoke of that has brought you to this point in your life, but I cannot say for sure. I want you to know that I think I understand where you are coming from. My ex husband did not cheat on me, but he was very abusive and very manipulative. He was able to convince some very influential people that I was crazy and they gave him our 2 year old son. I had three other children when I married him and since he managed to convince the right people I also lost them. My world was over. My children were my life. I am a survivor of a very close loved one who committed suicide many years before and always thought that it was a selfish act until I got to that point myself. I cannot honestly tell you how I made it to where I am today, but I do know that when I was in the darkest place of my life I would always try to tell myself that if I could only make it just 1 more hour or one more day. Eventually that hour and that day has become 10 years. I will not lie and say that I have never thought of suicide again because I have and the last time was fairly recent. I know I do not know you at all, but I believe that you seem to be a fairly strong person, at least strong enough to get on this site and tell your story. Maybe you did it in hopes of finding help or maybe you did it just to tell your story either way, in my opinion, you can go into your bedroom or bathroom and look in the mirror and tell yourself I am a strong person and I will make it. I may not know you but I believe in you. If you wish to talk more or just want someone to hear you let me know and I will give you my e-mail and from there my phone #. Be strong I know it is hard, but you never know what tomorrow has in store for you.